{stolen} inspiration

I was reading through a gorgeous friends blog {here} and I came across this beautiful piece of writing by psychologist Hugh Mackay.

It's very much where I am at.
I'm also struggling through the book 66 love letters, which is a study on the running theme through the Bible... it paints God in a light that is more power and righteousness less best friend/genie in a bottle.
It also ties in with the theme of this :

“I actually attack the concept of happiness. I don’t mind people being happy - but the idea that everything we do is part of the pursuit of happiness seems to me a really dangerous idea and has led to a contemporary disease in Western society, which is fear of sadness. It’s a really odd thing that we’re now seeing people saying 'write down 3 things that madeyou happy today before you go to sleep', and 'cheerup' and 'happiness is our birthright' and so on. We’re kind of teaching our kids that happiness is the default position - it’s rubbish. Wholeness is what we ought to be striving for and part of that is sadness, disappointment, frustration, failure; all of those things which make us who we are. Happiness and victory and fulfillment are nice little things that also happen to us, but they don’t teach us much. Everyone says we grow through pain and then as soon as they experience pain they say 'Quick! Move on! Cheer up!' I’d like just for a year to have a moratorium on the word 'happiness' and to replace it with the word 'wholeness'. Ask yourself 'is this contributing to my wholeness?' and if you’re having a bad day, it is.” 

Hugh Mackay, psychologist and social researcher