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Wow.
Ok, so it's a little long since I blogged.
If you think thats bad, you should see my journal. I could probably keep using the same one for the next 3 years and I still wouldn't finish it...
Part of me thinks thats a little sad, as I was such a 'journal-er' But on thinking about it, I guess it's just another one of those things that has altered over time, changed as I have grown up...
I have kept one since I was 9 or so, every year. Mostly to whine about how I perceived my situation to be.
A release of energy, of emotion, of pent up frustration...
Now I just take it out on the kids instead... Joking.
I think it's something to do (or at least I aspire for this to be the reason) with the fact that I am more in the now. I'm trying to deal with stuff that comes up as it happens, not 5 hours later with my head in a diary, and a pen furiously writing away the anger/guilt/sadness/overwhelmy feelings...
Even blog was never spost to be about an audience (how many times have we said that to ourselves)
I didn't even sit down to write this!
Was going to say, that my job has been going well.
I have team mates.
I am learning that there are definitely people I work better with.
I have re-learnt that I still get on better with guys in general than girls in a workplace. (study place, etc)
I have a teensy tiny, but oh so regular paycheck to count on every week.
And all of that feels good.
There was a moment yesterday when I thought : Oh crap, this is forever... I work everyday... I feel trapped....
And then I pulled myself together and told myself that I was being paid for it, and it was filling my days... and that is what I wanted.
Christmas holidays are a whole different row of ducks that are as of yet to be lined up, but.....
I am not freaking out.
yet.
So thats been my month.
New Job.
New responsibilities.
Learning, and trying to pray for those around me who need a break, who need a load taken off their shoulders.
Gosh, thats actually a whole post of its own...
I'll try to put proverbial pen to paper before the next month ends....
good to "see" you Megs
ReplyDeleteglad things are going well.....cept for the writing...get on it girl!!!
ahhh there is a season for everything, that it a truth!
love and light